ERRRRRR.....THE PAINS OF A SINGLE PARENT

I THINK I HAVE FINALLY RAN OUT OF KINDNESS FOR MY SONS FATHER, HOW THE HELL IS HE GOIN TO SAY SUMTIN TO OUR SON ABOUT LIL MAN NOT CALLING TO SAY HAPPY BDAY TO HIM, BUT YET HE DONT CALL TO SAY HAPPY BDAY TO HIS ONLY BLOOD CHILD ON HIS BDAY...SMFH....I SWEAR, I TRY NOT TO BAD MOUTH HIS FATHER, CAUSE AFTERALL THAT IS HIS FATHER AND ONE TIME WE HAD A GREAT RELATIONSHIP, IF HE ONLY KNEW THE PAIN HE CAUSES HIS SON, I AM THE ONE THAT HAS TO BE THERE FOR HIM, I AM THE ONE THAT HAS TO STAY STRONG FOR OUR SON AND PICK UP THE SLACK....ERRRRRRRRRRRRR....

SO MY SON'S FATHER CALLS HIM FOR CHRISTMAS. WHICH HE SHOULD BE DOING. I JUST DONT LIKE HAVING TO HEAR THE PAIN IN MY SON'S VOICE WHEN HE DONE TALKING TO HIM. I WISH SOMEONE COULD EXPLAIN TO ME WHY HIS FATHER IS GOIN TO TELL HIM HE HAS TO WAIT TO GET HIS CHRISTMAS PRESENT UNTIL HE GET SOME MONEY FROM A WRECK OR SOME SHIT LIKE THAT, BUT THEN IN THE NEXT BREATH TELLS HIS SON WHAT HIS 3 FOSTER KIDS ALL GOT FOR CHRISTMAS. I COULD NOT BELIEVE HIS FATHER HAS THE BALLS TO LIST OUT ALL THE GIFTS HE MADE SURE THE FOSTER KIDS HAD UNDER THE TREE BUT YET NOT SEND EVEN ONE PRESENT TO HIS OWN BIOLOGICAL SON. I COULD UNDERSTAND IF HIM AND HIS WIFE DID NOT HAVE ANY MONEY OR DOWN ON THEIR LUCK, BUT THATS NOT EVEN THE CASE. THEY GET PAID FOR THEIR JOBS AND ALSO CHECKS FOR THE FOSTER KIDS. SO THEY HAVE THE MONEY, THEY JUST CHOOSE NOT TO GET HIS SON ANYTHING.

YOU WOULD THINK HE WOULD WANT TO MAKE SURE AND BE A GREAT DAD TO HIS ONE AND ONLY SON. YOU WOULD THINK THAT HE WOULD STEP UP AND BE THE DAD THAT OUR SON NEEDS IN HIS LIFE. I'VE BEEN A VERY PATIENT WITH HIM. HE HAS BEEN THRU A LOT OF UPS AND DOWNS AND I NEVER KICKED HIM WHILE HE WAS DOWN ON HIS LUCK. WHEN HE WAS LIVING COUCH TO COUCH WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY I WAS NOT MAKING HIM PAY ANY CHILD SUPPORT, ESPECIALLY SINCE HE COULD BARELY TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF. SINCE HE HAS GOTTEN BACK ON HIS FEET. I HAVE ASKED HIM TO HELP OUT BY SENDING CLOTHES, SHOES, TOYS, OR EVEN CASH TO HELP PAY FOR THINGS FOR LIL MAN. SO FAR ALL HE HAS DONE IS SEND 1 THING OF CLOTHES AND ONE PAIR OF SHOES, AND ONE SET OF CLOTHES FOR SCHOOL. HE HAS ALSO ONLY SENT 2 GIFTS ONE FOR BDAY AND ONE FOR CHRISTMAS. NOW THIS TOOK PLACE A FEW YEARS AGO, BUT THATS BEEN IT. HE SENDS PICS OF ALL THE GREAT THINGS HE BUYS HIMSELF AND HIS WIFE AND/OR FOSTER KIDS. PICS OF BIG CHAINS AND NICE CLOTHES AND SO ON. BUT YET YOU CAN NOT EVEN SEND A PAIR A SHOES A YEAR OR EVEN A SHIRT OR PAIR OF PANTS AT LEAST ONCE A YEAR....NOW COME ON SON...YOU GOTS TO DO BETTER....

ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS DONT BLAME ME WHEN YOUR SON WANTS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU IN THE FUTURE. HE IS OLD ENOUGH TO SEE THAT YOU ARE NOT THERE FOR HIM IN ANY WAY, SHAPE, OR FORM....HE SEE'S HIS MOMMA WORKING HARD TO MAKE SURE THAT HE HAS SHOES ON HIS FEET, A SHIRT ON HIS BACK, AND PANTS ON HIS LEGS. HE SEE'S MOMMA PUTN FOOD ON THE TABLE AND A ROOF OVER HIS HEAD. HE WILL KNOW THAT MOMMA WAS AND WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR HIM. I WILL DO WHATEVER I HAVE TO DO TO MAKE SURE THAT HE HAS EVERYTHING HE NEEDS IN THIS LIFE.

SORRY FOR VENTING BUT I HAD TO GET THIS OUT, SO TIRED OF HOLDING IT IN, AND NO HIS FATHER DOES NOT HELP US IN ANY FASHION...THANK YOU GOD FOR GIVING ME STRENGTH AND I PRAY TO YOU FOR YOUR CONTINUED GUIDANCE AND LOVE...

SMOOCHZ...
SIENNA